Work, Work and More Work

Time really flies when a lot of things are happening around you. I didn't realize that it's been a month since my last post. I guess I also have to blame it on my weird schedule. Sometimes I work during the regular day shift, then I suddenly have to go on the night shift in a single week. It's worse though when I have to transfer to the day shift from the night shift. It really screws up my body clock big time.

Honestly, I'm getting to a point when I'm a little bit burned out with my work again. The problem with me is that I get too dedicated to my job that I tend to forget everything else in my life. I'm barely home again nowadays and if I'm there, I'm usually too sleepy to have a decent conversation with my sister. If I had to make a choice between a date or my deadline, I'd still most likely choose my deadline over my lovelife. If my friends need to talk to me, they'd need to work around my schedule.

So much paperwork, so many reports to submit and so many people issues to deal with. It can get a bit overwhelming on some days. However, if I had an easy job, then I'd be bored and probably still be unhappy. I guess it's really just a matter of me changing my perspective on things and learning to be content with what I have. Besides I'm learning a lot where I am right now. That's what motivates me to go to work everyday. I'm learning to be less self-absorbed and learning to be more sensitive to people's emotions. I know I tend to be too detached at times and always look at things objectively. (It's a defense mechanism I developed from childhood.) I forget that most other people are wired to make decisions based on how they feel.

It's always difficult to find that balance between work and life outside the office. I'm still trying to learn that everyday. This time, I want to finish something that I started. I am not giving up on this no matter how hard it gets. Besides, no matter how cliche this sounds, things always happen when they should and things always happen for a reason.