When Breaking Up and Quitting Mean The Same Thing
Last year, before I left for Singapore, I accompanied my sister and her friends to a manghuhula (fortune teller). They were the only ones supposed to get a reading. However, in the end, I found myself getting my reading done too.
I would say the whole experience was quite fun. I got some insight on some current situations that were bothering me and I was warned about certain choices I would make within the next year or two. However, this being real life, of course, nothing is ever set on stone. We always have the power to change our destiny.
While I was Singapore, my sister ended up going back to her 2 more times. When my situation in my former job was getting murkier by the minute, I would send my sister a question or 2 and my sister would email me her replies. Just to clarify, she never advised me to leave Singapore. She just told me about the difficulties I would have to live with. In the end, it was really my choice to come back.
Once I got back from Singapore, I sank into a deep state of depression. It was one of the major reasons why I didn't bother to celebrate my birthday. It was really my friends who dragged me out of the house. When I was feeling a little better, I decided to pay my manghuhula a visit.
As it turned out, she really could not give me a proper reading that day. Instead it turned into an advice session. She said I got too attached to my previous job. That's why it was so difficult for me to start my life again. She was sort of laughing because she said that I registered the same emotions as if I broke up with a boyfriend instead of just quitting a job. (Kind of reminded me how my love life has been soooo pathetic in the last couple of years.)
In the end, I had to go back to her for a meditation and prayer session so I would be able to let go of all my negative emotions towards my previous job. One of the things I had to do was write every single negative thought I've had about my past work, put it in a bottle and throw it in the sea. I already did that last week.
So I guess this post is just to close a chapter in my life. I will never forget that I once worked there because that is where I took my baby steps in the corporate world. I made a lot of mistakes along the way, made a lot friends, made some enemies and achieved a lot in a short span of time. Overall though, I would say it was a good experience because I learned a lot about myself. Things had to end though when they did. Now, it's time for me to move on and start over.
POSTSCRIPT: I finally officially started my job search last Monday. This time, I'm really serious about it.
I would say the whole experience was quite fun. I got some insight on some current situations that were bothering me and I was warned about certain choices I would make within the next year or two. However, this being real life, of course, nothing is ever set on stone. We always have the power to change our destiny.
While I was Singapore, my sister ended up going back to her 2 more times. When my situation in my former job was getting murkier by the minute, I would send my sister a question or 2 and my sister would email me her replies. Just to clarify, she never advised me to leave Singapore. She just told me about the difficulties I would have to live with. In the end, it was really my choice to come back.
Once I got back from Singapore, I sank into a deep state of depression. It was one of the major reasons why I didn't bother to celebrate my birthday. It was really my friends who dragged me out of the house. When I was feeling a little better, I decided to pay my manghuhula a visit.
As it turned out, she really could not give me a proper reading that day. Instead it turned into an advice session. She said I got too attached to my previous job. That's why it was so difficult for me to start my life again. She was sort of laughing because she said that I registered the same emotions as if I broke up with a boyfriend instead of just quitting a job. (Kind of reminded me how my love life has been soooo pathetic in the last couple of years.)
In the end, I had to go back to her for a meditation and prayer session so I would be able to let go of all my negative emotions towards my previous job. One of the things I had to do was write every single negative thought I've had about my past work, put it in a bottle and throw it in the sea. I already did that last week.
So I guess this post is just to close a chapter in my life. I will never forget that I once worked there because that is where I took my baby steps in the corporate world. I made a lot of mistakes along the way, made a lot friends, made some enemies and achieved a lot in a short span of time. Overall though, I would say it was a good experience because I learned a lot about myself. Things had to end though when they did. Now, it's time for me to move on and start over.
POSTSCRIPT: I finally officially started my job search last Monday. This time, I'm really serious about it.
posted by wilgefortis @ 2:12 AM
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