Finite Dreams

A girl in search of the meaning of life. I'm slowly finding my place in this thing called life.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

In Between

As I was checking my mail at 1 AM, a friend of mine logged on to YM. We haven't seen each since graduation, but we had gotten in touch recently because of Friendster. Anyway, she ended up telling me all her current problems at 2 in the morning while we were chatting on YM. I just gave her some sensible advice on what to do about her current situation based on what I did when I was in the same spot.

Earlier that night, another friend called me up. He asked me to buy him a Spongebob necktie. We had been talking about this since last week and I kept on saying no. I ended up getting the tie for him, but we agreed that this was going to be his early Christmas present.

It's funny how sometimes my friends act like kids when they are with me. I don't mind it though and I don't resent them at all for that. I love most of them too much to ever get mad at them. Sometimes, I just find it ironic how an immature kid like me can manage being a grown up. I mean I still love collecting action figures. Yet at the same time at the back of my mind, I'm continuously preparing for the day when I can finally build my dream house. I used to party like there was no tomorrow, but I managed to hold on to a steady job for 4 years. I'm the youngest in my family, but I already bought a pension plan and a life plan. That means when I die no one will have to worry about the funeral expenses. You probably think I'm morbid and weird. I can’t help it if that's the way I think sometimes.

My ultimate dream in life is to have my own house with 12 cats, 2 labradors, and 2 children. If you're wondering about the husband, he's really just an optional feature. If I fall in love with a really great guy, then I'll marry him. If not, then it doesn't make a difference to me. After that, when I'm really old, my really close friends can come live with me if they have no other place to stay. You see I really have simple dreams in life. It's just that my ambition makes my life a little bit more complicated than it ought to be. That's who I am though and I'm learning to manage better these 2 different sides of me with each day that passes.