The End of 2004
As I write this entry it is now December 31, 2004- the last day of the year. It's 5 AM in the morning and I still can't sleep. So I just decided to look back on the year that was.
If 2003, was the year of my greatest tragedy and greatest success, 2004 would be the year of self- discovery. I learned so many valuable lessons about life that I will always think back and say that this is the year when I finally grew up. There were definitely no regrets about any decisions I made. After everything was said and done, I became wiser and more responsible. What else could I ask for?
This was the year when I finally appreciated everything I had in the first place. I have the most caring (even if sometimes crazy) friends on earth and a wonderful (even if flawed) immediate family. Plus, no matter where I go and no matter how bad it gets, the Philippines will always be my home.
This was the year when I found my own strength. I am not afraid anymore to be alone. If I have to, I know I can finally stand on my own 2 feet and not have anyone dictating how my life should work out. I also finally overcame my alcohol addiction after years of fighting what I thought would be a losing battle.
So how did I end this year? I spent the start of the last day of the year in a bar called Government, which is somewhere in Makati. I was just hanging out with Paul and some new friends I made today. We didn't really plan on going there. It was just one of those spur of the moment decisions which turned out to be quite fun. Paul and I only danced for a few hours and we decided to go home a little earlier this time, which was around 2 AM. I know that my party-girl side is still there in me, I'm just a lot more subdued nowadays. I guess I've really outgrown that stage in my life, but I don't mind going back once in a while.
After leaving Government, Paul and I decided to have a midnight snack at Wendy's, which was on the next block. While seated there, there was this guy who kept on walking in front of the shop waving the roses he was selling. I think it was a really slow night for him. On a whim, I got up and bought myself 2 roses, and he ended up giving me a 3rd one for free. I had no idea what to do with them, until I remembered that I am going to my favorite church this Saturday. I'll definitely be dropping them off there instead of letting them die in my house.
If 2003, was the year of my greatest tragedy and greatest success, 2004 would be the year of self- discovery. I learned so many valuable lessons about life that I will always think back and say that this is the year when I finally grew up. There were definitely no regrets about any decisions I made. After everything was said and done, I became wiser and more responsible. What else could I ask for?
This was the year when I finally appreciated everything I had in the first place. I have the most caring (even if sometimes crazy) friends on earth and a wonderful (even if flawed) immediate family. Plus, no matter where I go and no matter how bad it gets, the Philippines will always be my home.
This was the year when I found my own strength. I am not afraid anymore to be alone. If I have to, I know I can finally stand on my own 2 feet and not have anyone dictating how my life should work out. I also finally overcame my alcohol addiction after years of fighting what I thought would be a losing battle.
So how did I end this year? I spent the start of the last day of the year in a bar called Government, which is somewhere in Makati. I was just hanging out with Paul and some new friends I made today. We didn't really plan on going there. It was just one of those spur of the moment decisions which turned out to be quite fun. Paul and I only danced for a few hours and we decided to go home a little earlier this time, which was around 2 AM. I know that my party-girl side is still there in me, I'm just a lot more subdued nowadays. I guess I've really outgrown that stage in my life, but I don't mind going back once in a while.
After leaving Government, Paul and I decided to have a midnight snack at Wendy's, which was on the next block. While seated there, there was this guy who kept on walking in front of the shop waving the roses he was selling. I think it was a really slow night for him. On a whim, I got up and bought myself 2 roses, and he ended up giving me a 3rd one for free. I had no idea what to do with them, until I remembered that I am going to my favorite church this Saturday. I'll definitely be dropping them off there instead of letting them die in my house.
posted by wilgefortis @ 6:26 AM
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