When He's Being Unreasonable

From the last few posts I've made, it's pretty obvious that I now have a semblance of a normal love-life right now. We're not together or anything. We really are just dating and trying to figure out if this will work out for us or not. This Friday though, I got really pissed off at him because he asked me the stupidest question ever.

We've been going out on an almost daily basis. Then suddenly, last night he asked me via text, "Are you dating someone else?".

I got really mad after he asked that question. I have no idea where that thought came from or even what drove him to ask that. I barely have time outside of work. I exert a lot of effort to squeeze him into my schedule and this is what I get?

At 1 AM, he texts me, "Are we okay already or are you still mad at me?"

All I could reply was, "Just go to sleep. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

It's Official

It's official, effective June 1, I will no longer be Trainer but an Account Supervisor. I've known about this since early April, but the whole process took longer than expected because I had to be regularized first and they had to fix my papers for the promotion. In reality though, I've been doing the job since late April anyway.

Things have moved pretty fast for me as always. I thought I was just going to have a quiet time in my life here working in a call center. I thought I was just going to stick around for a year and then go back to the world of gray suits. I guess I was proven wrong in a good way. This has turned out to be a pretty interesting adventure so far and I'm happy.

WTF?

I swear the last 2 weeks have been really crazy!

How can 2 people who only met 2 weeks ago go from not talking to holding hands while walking?

We started out with text messages, then we started hanging out, watching movies and now we practically see each other everyday. He even brings me cake or food to my office.

Today after watching a movie, he sends me text saying, "Thanks for the movie. I miss you already."

God damn it! I am so scared!!!! I don't know where this is going... For a person morbidly afraid of any kind of romantic connection with another human being, this situation is giving me an ulcer. I mean, I do like him and he's giving me some kind of balance in my life, but am I ready for this of affection and attention from anyone?

Pros:

- He's showing me a life outside the four walls of my office.
- He makes me laugh.
- I'm very comfortable with him.
- He makes me feel safe.
- He makes me slow down.
- He understands my work and the weird hours I keep.
- He never questions my ambition and drive.

Cons:

- He interferes with my gym schedule.
- How sure am I that I'm not the rebound girl?

Difference Between Hanging Out and Dating

Over the last 4 years or so, I've been morbidly afraid of any kind of commitment. So even when I was dating someone, I just preferred to refer to it as "hanging out" rather than actually call it dating. I didn't want to think of the possibility of ever commiting to someone, so I just simply ignored any possibility of me being more than friends with anyone.

Anyway, I met someone about 2 weeks ago and have been seeing him quite often. Last night, he asked me the question, "So are we dating?" and suddenly my ulcer acted up again. We ended up having a long conversation where he struggled to define to me what a date was. All this time, I really thought we were just simply "hanging out" as friends and I had no idea that he already considered the whole of last week as dating.

In the end, we agreed that when we go out to finally watch "Star Wars" tomorrow, it's officially a date. The whole of last week will remain to be a question mark since this really was a case of different expectations. He knows I have a really bad track record with my serious relationships. If he's willing to take the risk though, then I'll give him a chance.

Quiz daw o!

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

Thoughts on Why I Am Not Posting

I guess it's been almost a month since I last updated my blog. I've been very busy with a lot of things in my life like work, family responsibilities and friends. I've been spending a lot of time in the office though. On the average, I'm there about 12 hours everyday.

It's funny how lots of things can happen all in 1 week. Friendships are born, people move on to another stage of their lives and family relationships can be strained to the point where relatives decide to cut off contact with each other. In the workplace, politics can be played out in the open arena where you know exactly who your enemies are or in secret meetings where factions plot out their next move.

I don't want to get into too much detail. I'm in that stage of my life where I'd rather keep some things to myself first. I guess that's the reason why I haven't been posting as much. There will be a time for everything. For now, I'm happy to live my real life without having to announce everything to everyone. Let me sort out some things first, then maybe I'll be able to talk more.