Finite Dreams

A girl in search of the meaning of life. I'm slowly finding my place in this thing called life.

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Favorite Romantic Movies of All Time

1) Sense and Sensibility- This Jane Austen classic was translated for the movie screen by Emma Thompson and directed by Ang Lee. It tells the story of 2 sisters and their search for true love in a society where money determines who you can marry.

2) The English Patient- This was based on the Booker Prize-winning novel written by Michael Ondaatje. A man is found in the desert after a plane crash. He has lost all of his memory, but under the care of a nurse, he begins to tell the story of the love of his life. He was an archaeologist before the start of World War II and on one expedition he falls madly in love with the wife of one of his colleagues. They have an affair before the start of the Great War of the 20th century. Later on, they are torn apart not by the war, but by jealousy, passion and ultimately, death. It also examines the lives of other characters in the story who try to rebuild their lives after seeing so much madness and cruelty on the battlefields of Europe.


3) Moulin Rouge- This is the movie that you either really hate or really love. Baz Luhrman tells the tragic love story of Christian and Satine in bohemian Paris of the 19th century using modern pop songs.

4) Ever After- This is one of the many screen versions of the Cinderella story. It's my favorite though because it is the one I can most relate with. I like the idea that for once in the fairy tale the princess doesn't have to be saved and is considered an equal by the man of her dreams.

5) Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind- I've already written one entire post about this. Love is one of the most illogical feelings in the world. But when we do fall in love, we never really listen to our brain anyway. So the only thing we can do really is just see where it takes us. Hopefully we land on a soft cloud and live happily ever after. If it is our bad luck to end up in the middle of the storm, then we have no choice but to try to find our way out of

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Brithday......

I'm 26 years old today.

Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to me!

In Mandarin, I would be singing "Ni de shengri kuaile!"

I'm unemployed but happy…..

At least I'm being true to my heart for the first time in a long time…..

My only wish for this year is to find a job that will make me happy. As a bonus, I wish God would send me the man of my dreams. However, I think my finding a new career is a more pressing issue.

Birthday resolution is to stop drinking alcohol for 1 year. Hahahahahaha! Good luck to me!

I'm too sleepy to write anything sensible. In case you didn't notice, it is 5 AM in the morning. I promise to write something on Sunday. Hopefully.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

The Life of the Bum

Ever since I got home, I haven't been doing much except go out to meet friends, watch my collection of art film DVD's and catch up on all the cable TV programs I've been missing for the last year. I already lost count how many DVD's I've finished viewing, but I can say all of them are pretty good. These are the titles that stand out though:

1) Sunset Boulevard- This Billy Wilder film tells the story of the strange relationship between an aging silent film star and a young writer drifting aimlessly. It's full of irony and dark comedy. The script is very smart and the cast is excellent.

2) Triplets of Belleville- This should have won the Oscar for Best Animated Film. It's a very simple and touching story about a grandmother who loses her only grandson after he is kidnapped by the French Mafia during the Tour De France. The visuals are excellent, the music is memorable and it shows how people can keep their integrity despite being placed in difficult circumstances.

3) Chungking Express- This is the first Wong Kar-Wai movie I have ever seen. After watching this film, I am a new fan.

Can't rememeber all of them yet at the moment. I'll put out a more comprehensive list once I've finished some more movies. I still have to catch up on the Akira Kurosawa DVDs I haven't seen.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Back in Manila

Finally got back last Thursday (Sept. 2, 2004) after 1 hellish week of packing and re-packing all my earthly possessions. My write up in Friendster says that everything I own fits in 1 huge luggage and 1 back pack. That was applicable before I left for Singapore. Now, I think I need to update that to say 1 huge luggage, 1 back pack and 3 huge boxes.

I still do no regret my decision to leave Singapore despite the fact that I had a great career there and was making some good money. I just got to this point in my life where I was so emotionally drained from work that I really needed to take a step back and just think about where I want to take my life. It's hard to get up everyday and drag myself to the office when I really do not have the energy to do so anymore. Before I finally left my office for good though, all the senior managers in my department said that if I decide to come back in a few months time, the door is still open for me.

My body clock is pretty shot right now because since I got home, I've been sleeping like 12 hours everyday. I only go out of the house because I need to find food or meet up with some people. Haven't been rushing around though because I am focusing on recharging myself before I finally decide what to do with my life.

Since I am currently unemployed, I feel like there's a huge hole in my life right now. I am so used to doing something that I feel so disconcerted with having nothing to do at all. It's only been a week though and already I am experiencing withdrawal symptoms from my being a workaholic. Last Sunday, I rushed out of the house to buy newspapers to check out the classified ads. However, I haven’t really submitted my applications yet. I just need to relax first, think about my life carefully and then go for something I really want.

In less than 2 weeks time, I will turn 26. Gosh. I don't really know if I should celebrate my birthday considering I am unemployed, confused and unsettled for now. I should snap out of this funk though. I guess I just need to get some more rest and readjust slowly to my life back here.

Thursday, September 02, 2004

At the Changi Airport Part 2

I'm here at the airport waiting for my plane to start boarding. Anyway, hope to see you guys soon. i just need to sleep for about 2 weeks first....